Rabu, 18 September 2013

September 18th 2013

well, hello

it's been years right?

but i'm not here to talk about the past, it was a blast, a jolly one, but it's already passed anyway.

here, sitting in my white and messy office desk, way past working hours, and alone. being alone gives me space, something that i barely have these past 6 months. i will get my space back in less than 3 weeks. how do i feel? i don't know.
i should be relieved and all, but it's never that simple is it? when something is going to slip from your grasp, its memories will flash in your head. one by one. i remember every excitement and thrills when i first started. every smile, every blissful moment, every small happiness, every laughter. i don't recall any whining and frustrations, but they were there all along.

considerations are running in my head now, but actually the decision has been made. i don't have any regret, but still i want to take a few steps back. it's scary how comfort zone can persuade you to a certain point where you helplessly begging to stay. but it won't happen. the bomb has dropped and i cannot undo the damage.

for years i believe in domino effect. things happened for a reason. i didn't even stay to find out about the reason yet. am i wrong?

maybe one day i will read this post, reminiscing about tonight's insecurity and smile. like always.


hasta la vista

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